Ouch~!! Pain~ !!

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

Well,it is very shameful but it is painful....
Just now was taking my bath,guess what?!?
I fell down,hit on my bouncy butt,hit my leg to the wall...
So big d still can fall down eh,so shameful ar...
But now ok d,not that painful d... ^^

********************* My Feeling **********************

I have be very moody for the last few post due to my love...
Today I can say I am doing better d...
There are something that suddenly make me think of you...
The college car ticket number that I promise to get for you...
I have forgetten it d,but one of my friend reminded me of it...
Now at the house planning to cook dinner,it make me think of you too....
Hanging the clothes also make me think of you...

As I said I was doing well before all this happen and remind me...

But I really enjoy today,I got through my OB test,

but for Xi Xi and Ling Ling like got abit problem...

Hopefully teacher help them lor...

My friends all so good,they were all around...never leave me alone at all

they also keep me very busy so I will not think of useless thing...

Every relationship have their own problem,

it is depends on will you give it other chance anot...

If you really think it can be mend why not try it,better than leaving it...

Just only feel one of my friend relationship not going very well..

They were colder than usual...and the way the guy look at the girl is like,

please can I have a second chance...

I asked both of them ,but I couldn't get anything from them...

All the guy say is you wait la,as time come you know...

One more new couple,still very new,fresh and shy...

The guy is very caring and the girl is very nice too...

But the guy is want to move on faster,but the girl want to take it slow...

So all I can say is try to sit and talk lor...

It is a relationship but is two people in it... Don't don't talk cause it will not help...

I learn from my past...

~~~~~~~~~~~~ In the End ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Overall, I'm very happy...

With what I have,who I got,Where I am...

Have one more new member who I want to thank you

William Tan~ ^^

Making me laugh alot lately...

Thank you,

for making me happy,and teaching me ILO ^^

Learning to let go....

So at last I have face the fear that I have be worrying about..
I guess that will be the end of our love,
even though,there is regrates,sadness,
and there are something that still missing....
We still letting it go...

After you leave yesterday I cry very badly..
I started to miss you,I started to think of you...
And I know I will never get to see you again...
I kept my promise,I did not cry during the talk...
I have a feeling you did not leave that fast,
you was near by,feeling the same thing that I feel....

When I was in my room,alot of thing hit me...
Where you used to sit,your smell,your face,your sweetness...
And always talking to me...
This house have alot of you... too many...
I looking at my phone whole day, hoping for you...

I know you will not be back for awhile...
Till I go find you...as I told you...
But it hurts,my heart hurts alot...

I was such a fool,during infornt of others all I can do is be happy,
like it does not matter at all...
But once I am alone,the thought of you fill my head..
I wanted to speed the healing process.... It do kill me~!

Listening to alots of song,those song we used to share or sing too,
I have deleted,and stop listening too,all they do is make me think of you...
I am hesitating did I done it right??

I miss you...
This will the last time I will be saying this to you...
Thank you... You were the best thing happen to me...
You have to be happy...

Grateful . Numb . Happy . Sad .

I very grateful,happy cause I found out,
I have alots of good friends that are supporting me...
Even though,I lose you but I gain something,
that is more than you,even is better than you...

My sisters,Nigel,Xi Xi,Ling Ling, Lian Lian...
Everyone of them tell me one thing,
and ask me to trust it...
But you are not the same you always try to ask me not to follow it...
But since so many people can ask me to follow it why should I still listen to you?
I should just listen to it,my own feeling..

For the pass few hours, I was suffering...
I wanted to cry,but I could not do it...
Everyone tell me to hold on,you are not worth it to cry for...
asking me to be strong,I did it...
I was happy,laughing like normal without you in my life...

But suddenly when I was watch the drama that you used to enjoy,
one of the actress said something you told me before...
and eve hug me and I broke down...
Then only I know I was holding in very long...
I have to do this.... All my sisters do is hug me and stay quiet,
till I start talking...

There is pain,sadness...
But I have make up my mind...
My feeling telling me is time to let go...
Losing you is painful, but I know I will and can get over it...
Cause I have my family and friends with me...
I be stronger than last time..

Grateful cause I meet a bunch of good friends,
that I never have...
I felt lucky cause last time not one friends of my will find me,
if they know I have problem...
But for you all the once you read my blog,you all come to me...
I am very thankful toward you all...
You all the best thing/human I ever have~

Thank you to my sisters,Nigel,Xi Xi, Ling Ling, Lian Lian~
All I can say is this... Thank you~

It's over I guess...

I am very near to the end now...
My love is leaving soon...
It just the time...

Even though it is short but,
I was happy,I learn I grow,I cry,I understand,I was stronger...
I know it will hurt,but there is no other choices...
It's mine will be mine,it's not mine will not be mine...

I will put in all my best to go save,
but if cant be save,I will try not drop a tears...
Cause you have given me the best thing I have ever ask for...
It will be pain,but like you always tell me I have to be stonger..

You have colour a part of my life...
You was a part of my life...
Thank you for staying,even is only awhile..
At least you make my life better...

It better to pain for a short time,
rather then paining for the long time...

Thank you for everything,
& good bye for now...

I hope my friends can be with me,
and help me to get over it...
Especially Lian Lian,Xi Xi and Ling Ling..
I need you all~!! Save me~ok??

Facing problem.. Need a solution~

Why is it so hard for me to trust him??
Why I can trust others but not him??
Why I am always thinking what is he doing??
Why I am like so lost without him??
Is he the one?
Is he that important?

I always do try to trust him,
everytime I convict myself to trust him,
in the end I will end up with where I started...

Maybe is cause we are still new??
I don't really know what to do...
I am new too... It is hard for me...
I wish I can trust him with all my heart...
I always try to be stronger and independent,
but after meeting him I become so weak..

Why am I always the one who dissappoint poeple who love me?
Why can't I do better?
Why is it so hard to study?

Having a very very short sem...
Lots of test,mid-term,courseworks...
Lots to study,remember and eat in...
I really can't stand see the love one of my get hurt by me..
I feel really bad...
Sometime I just hate myself so much~

Why am I like this??