Merry christmas

So I hereby wishing everyone a very happy merry christmas.
Went Cameron highland,thinking it was going to be a very nice trip,
but it end up,suck! So suck up!

The house is a house alright,but we have to do housekeep for them.
Aunty cook for us,clean house and the bed over there speechless.
19 of us stuck in a small house.

Parents cant take it,got back home today.
haha. But I enjoy the weather there.

Once again,Merry Christmas and happy holiday everyone!!

Lost

Something or someone was lost yesterday!
Forever.
Good bye little unborn one.
Sorry for not giving you a chance to the world,
Is our fault,but that is the best way for you.
I did not mean to make her made this decision,
but it have to be done so.

The guilty is a heavying burden,
that have to be carry for sometime.

Don't know why feel?

Don't know why feel so desperate!

Don't know why feel so lonely!

Don't know why feel so angry!

Don't know why feel so tired!

Don't know why feel so fed up!

Anyone out there feel the same?

Wish to have someone I can share things with!

Everyone here have someone to share it with,

beside me!

Brand new me!

Got a headache last night.
When to bed very early.
Guess why right.
Haha.

Got all my stress out,now is like a brand new me.
So happy and free.
@Maison,shake off all my stress.
Well,the dance floor not very big,music not very nice.
But I get to go with him,it was the first time.
He never have the intention to let me know where is he going,
so I plan not to know too,and I plan my own.
How to know,we were going to the same place.
So we jump in with him,and we all got high.
It was fun. Got all my stress shaken away.

Mum and dad got my a laptop.
Yeah my own lappy.
Thank you mummy and daddy.

Having a very nice moment now in my life.

P/S
Happy birthday to Chia
Happy belated birthday to WK

Under the Shadow

I'm suffocating!
Stay under her shadow,
From don't know when start I was fighting to get my own light.
It was so long ago and it is still going on.
No matter what I have done, still trap under her.

Whenever I look up she is the only thing I can see.
Everyone will praise whatever she do,love what she do.
Whatever I do is always not good enough.
Sometime,drive myself to the edge to just to get their praise,
but it will never arrive.

I remember how I wish mum came along with me
when I first study at KL.
How they trusted her with almost everything.
Even she did wrong they will not scold or nag her as much as me.
Even I complaint how much about her,they will still help her.

How I wish they can open toward us!
The younger one are sufferring, yet they don't know.

Is true,they love us.
But they love her more till is so obvious.

Sad.