Lost . Mood-less . Speech-less

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I felt I really sucks now..

So hate myself now..

Holding on so many things I am very tired..

Always have to put sense to people head..

Making sure I don't hurt them..

But by doing this,it make me more hate myself..

Cause sometime I just feel I am so fake,can't the truth..

They say they have feeling for me,

but I don't.. and I don't really want to hurt them..

I just so lost..

Everyone have feeling so sometime is different..

Today they say they like me,the next day is so cold to me..

I have said,if you wanna wait you have to wait for a long time,

but by waiting maybe the chance will not come also..

I feel like a bit*h now..
I just so have to go bother every little thing people do to me..
It's hurt very badly.. I try to let go, but, it just stay there..
I really don't want to know everything is happening in you'll..
But it just I know you'll..one is since we are both..one is my best friend..
It's hard when you'll fight about this matter..
I felt sorry.. I will try not to know..

Sometime I am wondering what am I to poeple,to friends?

I really want to know..

am I a friend, a bit*h, a enemy, a useable human??

Can anyone tell me??

I am so lost in all this feeling..
Can I just go numb? Haix..

I guess not I have to deal with this all..
Hope I will not hurt anyone in this process..
In my process of growing..

Todays

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Wah..the world is a very dangerous place..

Lately we always get from news is all about H1N1..

It already hit KL and Klang..haix..sad..

Well I think lately I will not always online d..
Due to homework,test,and assignment..
I got very stress cause of studies..
Is already week 5 yet I still trying to adapt to the subjects..

I find it very hard to understand the subjects..
And alot of reading is needed..so is very hard..
I found out I am so inbalance..
I can read twilight saga for hours without leaving the book...
But when it come to read text book..only 10 mins I will run away..

Today we all know our SCO result..
In our gang Cong got the highest,follow by Xi then me and Lian and Ling..
Ling was weeping in class today..cause she got the lowest among the whole group..
She don't really understand SCO,but her calculation is very good..
When it come to logistics paper she is not good in it..

We all comfort her..cause if for me I also will be sad..
But when come of think of it,this is our first coursework,
we be still having one more paper next week..
So we told her lets study together so she can do better..
And the assignment have to put in more effort d..

There are so many subject to worry..
Law,Marketing,Logistics,Supply Chain and Tamadun Islam..
Stress kau yer..
And the way of answering is also not easy..
But I will not give up..

Ling Ling don't give up ok..
We will help you,I help you keep your laptop warm k..
I will play with your laptop and keep it happy..
Haha.. We jia you together ar..

The goal of my Life~

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Trying to get my life straight and back on track ...

First of all..

My studies is the most important to me now..

For a better future for me and my family..

Most of all is my parent and family wish I get through it..

Even though is very hard now..

And is drowning me with knowledge and stress..

But I promise I try my best to get through with it..

Second of all..

My buddies,friends,pees..

They are like the most second important in my life..

Without them I can die..

Cause no fun,no play,no crazy-ness,no insanity..

I don't think I can live in that way..

And I am hoping to meet more people,

to add in my buddy list..

Third of all..

Well who can live without family..??

They are the GOD to me..

Well I said that cause they are my financier..Haha..

And later I will be financing them when I get a job..

They are the real best thing a person could have..

They get almost everything for me..

They are like genies..granting every wish of mine..

Love them so much.. *Muackz*

The last of all..

My love life..

To me almost every guy I met,will feel this..

I am a princess and they are a layman..

Yes I do agree..but I don't wish to put in that way..

I am not a very good looking girl..

Just my family can say is flawless..

I am very well protected and taken care of..

My Queen and King fertilize me with lots of love and $..

But is control $..cause I am not really that royal..

Anyway,I will not really put in alot of effort in

this section,but if I have to I guess I will..

^^

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That is what I am going to do for now..

And be grateful with what I have.. ^^

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Tiring o..

Did not sleep well last night.. lately my tummy is killing me...

I have to run to toilet 4 in the morning.. -.-"

And it pain like hell,hardly sleep..

We have sushi for brunch today..yummy..

Then reach home about 12.30pm,though is late but I manage to watch my favorite..

CSI,was craving for it for a week d.. ^^

Stuck to the big black box at home till 3pm..

When Tesco to shop for grocery and did research for my SCO assignment..

Well get some info on it..but anot sure is enough to get thing done..

Still thinking on that..

Bought buy new fishy.. Yah~

New fishy for my new tank.. ^^

The sun is back for me again

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Lately I have been very moody and maybe due to that lady of luck run away from me...
So many thing happen to me this week..
Well life have ups and downs..
I have problem with friends but now everything is ok..
Still have a good and strong bond..

I have confess to my parents about the phone..
They was speechless..mummy thought I lost the phone.. ^^
But lucky I got the phone back but I cant on the phone.. T.T
Last night I got so stress cause of my phone and my studies..
I try call alot of friends beside Xi,Lian,Ling..
They scold me cause I never call them..
I just dont wish to throw all my stuff on you guys..

During the day you all keep entertain me d..
I dont wish to burden you all d..
So I try call my ex.. He did answer my phone..but didn't really bother about me..
So I also know and just drop a few words and I call my Eve instead..
I cry on the phone and is kinda a way for me to release my stress..
So I got better since I have confess..

Like normal the three beautiful girl will enterain me very well..
Having a very wonderful mood for the whole workshop..
The fornt part of my workshop is fun,by Mr Johan Lim..
But after the break everyone got abit sleepy..
I was playing PSP~ ^^

After the workshop,Chia drive us back to Klang..
Got home sleep till 6pm..
Have dinner at Crystal Crown Hotel..
Celebrate father day in advance.. ^^

So everyone remember to go wish your daddy..

Happy Daddy day~ ^^

Have a nice day~

What a day~

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19/6
Hardly sleep last night,due to my phone and cause I keep worry I cant get up..
My phone is killing me..I hoping it will be fine..
And yesterday I got up very late..was late for class..
So worry today cant wake up..
But I get to wake up and go for class..

Then Kimichi go class we us,
the guard dont allow we park the car in so we curi curi park the car at CECE
Haha..then have FOM,then lunch meet up with ray ray..
Went back to campus to have Law class..

Then we all went to Lian Lian house cause want to play badminton..
Me don't know how to play de,so just simply hit..
The ball I open also wrong..Ling teach me till want to faint d.. ^^
Pei seh o ling..too dumb d me..

Then around 8 plus we have dinner together..after dinner got home..
Sleep around 1 o.. ^^

What the

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Yesterday,so unlucky ar...
Dont know why very bad luck on wednesday..
Last week I lock my self inside the house with my key in my room..
This week I drop my E71 in water..
I was like what the... What is wrong with wednesday and me..
Anyway now I got my phone,blowing it with fan..
Hoping my phone is ok..cause I think it was in the water about 5 mins..
Damn worry about it,I just got it for a few months..
If my parent know they kill me,even chop me.. -.-"

Well,dont know why..abit moody now..
Maybe is due to the phone abit but also is my friends and my result..
Well,I agree sometime I do think to much,but..
is just that I try not to think,it still there hanging.. -.-
Actually is just a small thing,and I am trying not to make a fuss about it..
It just that,since you all will be leaving is it ok to just inform me?
Rather then let me run around to look for people who dont want me to be around
I look like a stupid..Well that is my friends..how nice of them..
Speechless..

Waiting for others,there is sure no problem..I will wait..
When it come to waiting for jess..well,let her be..
Uh~I really dont like people who treat friends so different...
They make it so obvious..
Well I dont know why am i complaining so much?
Argh..I am just so feeling the unfairness..
Anyway..I cant really change anything,things will still be the same..
I just admire someone..He never said a single word or throw attitude to anyone, when this happen to him..
He just be cool about it.. wah..wish to have his attitude..

Well let it be ba.. ^^
My result for SCO is also killing me...
We still havent got our marks...
3 failure..God hoping is not me..
Sir cant really remember who got what..What a waste..

Lately I found out,I am not doing very well in my studies..
Even though,got study,but is like not enough..
I have 4 assignment and 3 presetation and lots of exam..
My knowledge is so limited and little,comparing to some of my friends..
I need to add in lots of oil to go through my this sem..
I guess I will be buried over lots of books and notes..

All the best to everyone.. ^^

Being me again~ ^^

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Well,after being at home for few day and was pamper by parents,

grandma, I got well very fast..

Now still got abit flu in time and abit cough but doing very good..

Now is at Xi Xi house..

Will be sleeping over tonight..

Why I am here is cause of the so call study for SCO thingy..

Haha..we plan to study for SCO de,but what we do today..

Morning,I reach here..

Then,we watch tv till 12pm

Afternoon,study awhile..

Then Ling do mask for Xi,

then Ling do her hair,

then I do my nail..

I have a short nap,

they watching drama

Evening,we watch tv again..

bath,have dinner,read blog..

Just now watch tv again..

I don't know what we study lor...

Really speechless to what we are doing...Haha..

Waiting to die lor..

Tomorrow going back KL d..

Start to study and play again..

My Life~

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I am sick~
Haiyo..My SCO test coming only I sick~
Feel like a stupid...
Dont have mood to study...

Was sneezing like a cow sneezing on tuesday..
Then I feel better d de...
How to know wednesday night I having flu d.. -.-"
Then thursday I'm just like a shit...
Hardly can wake up...
But I still have to go pick Xi Xi and Lian Lian,
so I make myself get up and go pick them..

Then after all the class..
Xi Xi,Ling Ling,Lian Lian and Cong Cong all go to my house..
They take care of me.. ^^
So nice of them.. *Muackz*

Till today still have flu.. Stupid haze..make me sick... T.T

Well overall we have a nice week...
Hanging out together almost all the time..
Study,play,laugh,happy,angry,sad..

Very nice to have friends like them..
You are the best..

Guys...
Life have ups and downs..
Never let those downs pull you all down to the lowest
Cause you still have the ups..
Cheer up all, take care ya..

*SMILE ALWAYS*

Started..

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Started my college life again..
Very happy due to I got to year two..
But there are also bad news...
Few of my friends never get to go to year two..
They have to repeat the course..
And then when you think the bad news is going to end..
It got even worst and it kinda stress to me..

Lecturer all saying..
No more guide-line ,no more story book, no more this and that..
But why it can't be NO MORE coursework...
It is getting harder each day..

And then for some of my friend got very sad..
Due to we have to change some of the people over to other group..
So I got some friend got very depress..
KY cheer up ok..
Life is like that everyone will have up and down..
Hope you get well soon.. Same goes to the others..

So now already my second week in the college...
I will be have my first test on week 4..
So near yet so hard to understand..
William please be gentle and easy on us..
We are very fragile.. ^^

Everyone add oil and plus oil.. ^^
All the best to everyone..

CY,SK,JS... I miss you all lor..
We go yam cha this week k?? Call me lor.. ^^