To my Friends.

Everythings just don't lost it way easy,it will make lotsa of turn and come back to you.

Like this lesson I have learn,I wanted to keep the truth but it still come around and hit me in the face. I still have to face it and tell the truth to her,no more running,it will make things worst.


Yesterday I got a msg from ray,saying she will not break the friendship with me,this is something that I'm worry about,got so moody when I saw her msn knowing the trust of ours have been broken by me. After getting this msg I feel a big rock have been kick away,so I will face her with all the truth even though my brain have block all the memory.

You said you are a loser,as my thinking though this is a issue it is not a bad one. We never say anything of leaving you,sometime things that the spotlight have shine on is not a bad thing. This may be a change in the friendship,into a better and stronger one. Studies,you are doing good in it,but not yet the best this is up to you to decision to work harder on it or just being average. Love,don't have to worry. He love you dearly,just keep up with all the talking and loving you will be fine. Friends,thing will be better if issue of ours is settle.

Guy you all are everything to me,so promise me we will stick with each other forever.
Please,we have and will settle everything out k.

Signing off,
Jess

Sorry! I'm sorry!

I got a friend she is very internal type. Things happen and she hardly tell people about it, as a freiend of hers,sometime I just hope she can open up and tell people,cause keep everything inside is hard. Sometime thing leave undone and unsaid is not for the best but the worst,cause the turth will never come out.

Yesterday,we talk alot. Chia came up with one conclusion. We actually don't really each other very well.

Haix,it is sad. I feel guilty cause half of this issue is came from me. Very sorry to everyone I hurt! Especially,her.sorry.

The happy thing is I finish my paper today!
Get to fly high d~!

After finish my paper,there is two people I wanted to hug and jump with most!
Mr.CY and Sir.A my two prefect guy.Haha.

Signing off
Jess

The End

Last paper tomorrow! Ohyea!

Happy bird,

Jess

You're out!

4 paper have been strike out,other 4 more to go.
Till the end of thursday I'll be a bird! I'm going to fly like a free bird!
Can't wait for it. Haha. Holiday here I come!

-Linking to tokkie- Don't mind him,he is always like that,eye only got himself and his dream girl only. If you really don't like him,just don't give a shit about it. Keep up the good work ya.

Got few plan line up for my long 3 week holiday!
Wish everyone have a nice day!

Signing off,
Jess

Down to the drain!

I'm toast,dead meat,gg!! Study till 4 in the morning and I only managed to do 3 question out of 5.wahaha. Is the dopey MA test,really can kill people. Some of my classmate when you see them and ask about MA,they will be shaking their head and saying is damn hard!

Tokkie,don't cry o. I will not cry now cause is kinda wasted my time to do so,I prefer to cry later when I see my sux-ing result! (*Crossing finger* hope is not going to happen) Still will try my best in other paper,this paper is going down the drain. Bye bye MA!

Signing off,
Jess

Thought of the day.

Gotta change!

Plan to complaint less.

Talk less.

Act less.

Hate less.

Care more.

Listen more.

Real more.

Love more.

Is time for me to give up on being perfect and start being myself,stop judging myself and be nicer to myself,learning to accept the fact that I cant change and change the ones with a positive attitude.I have to start accepting what I have,and try being happy with where I am with who I am and what I have.Gotta make positive thinking a habit!


I'm not sure what my friend is planing to do is the right thing,I talked about it and everyone;mean my sis and mum ask me to advise her not to do so. Is not the time yet,is too early. How to tell your friend this when is seem happy and have wanted to do the thing she have decided. I really don't know how to tell her or talk to her,cause I really want her to be happy. She seem to be in a happy place now. All I can do is wish her all the best and be there for her all the time supporting her.

What a Bitach

Sick of this bitach,she is cubby in look and she hated her look but just can't seem to find her will power to slim down. She love to complaint about almost everything,life,friends,family even herself lately.She kinda hating herself very much lately. She talk to much sometime is just damn annoying.Wish she just shut up sometime. She have a very short temper,and very anxious in thing. Always wanting people or thing to circle around only herself,things go her way.

Sometime a freak,she kinda life in a double world sometime she just got lost in the beautiful,make up world of hers. This is the drama,movie and fairy tale is put to blame,it corrupted her mind! She always done something and regreting late on,common get over it already right,what is done is done. She sometime is a damn crazy faker! She fake being friendly just to be like an angel,faking simles,cry,to make people giving her the attention she wanted. The worst thing about her is she is a show off bitach!

She have to change everything! She is never a better person,she is sucker! Pathetic life she have,is all her own doing!

If there is anything you want to add on to this bitach please do,and if there is any advise please do leave some too.

Daft, Je

Got home,klang home. Everyone at home saying I'm so hardworking.Coming home after a day,haha. Today was the first day of exam,erm..is hard the exam! Just hoping I did well. -.-'
Having insomnia lately,brain is very active during me sleeping.

Feeling far apart with her lately,ever since he come in to the picture there is a gap in the middle.It is getting huge! I really don't have idea how to fill it back,I want her to be happy but it just getting to my nervous. They are all lovey dovey,I use to be okay with it but it all change. See them making me just simply wanting a bf and thinking back the time I have. Kinda torturing.

I'm not here to complaint just that I'm losing things I care that all.

Signing off.Tata

Blue blue
Jess

My day

Well,it is kinda boring,cause I haven't been really study yet.Though I just read and run through my notes.Not really getting anything actually.haha. Lately,been downloading lotsa drama,literally alot. So also have been marathoning infront of my lappy.

Erm,friday is coming,well is tomorrow. My First paper,english!can be said as easy and also hard,still thinking on what can I read on,but my head is in the drama,kinda daft girl.

Anyhow,like sir said don't bring yourself to unnecessary stress just get on with it and look forward to the award(holiday!). I'm excite and happy looking beyond the exam!

Break a leg to all and enjoy the time!

Bo Bo Wednesday

I have been in college alomost of two year.
This time is my last second sem and final exam.
Yea,final is coming soon.roughly one more week.
I started to study bit by bit,but it just cant seem to stay in my head.

Today,skip class again!God,I'm a very bad girl but what to do is just to boring going to school and now is boring to stay home.Hoping can go out and hoping there is a place to go. Sitting infornt of lappy and have nothing to do is really darn boring.So now I'm crapping infornt of lappy and in my blog.Haha.

P/S: Guys,good luck for exam ya. Gambateh ne!

2010!

So fast.A year swift by again.
Like that we have known each other for 2 year d.
It have been a very crazy and insane 2 year.
All the ups and downs we go through together
and with going without each other.

Friends.

It have been very nice knowing all of you.
I really enjoy all the time being with you guys.
It was the best and nothing can replace it.

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First day of new year,
our muscle man,desmond birthday!
Let's party before exam!
It was a great party.Almost everyone got drunk.
Hero of the night! *Clap clap clap*

1. William! vomit in Remick's car
2. Kang yung! vomit outside of my car
3. Kim! vomit almost in of Chia's car
4. Brian! vomit in Hilmy's car

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Yesterday went Sunway Shogun.

Sushi buffet! Sushi time!

Yummy! It was mm~

Lucky we went shopping before eating,haha.

If not I will not be able to fit in anything!

Can't wait for Chinese New Year!

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I hereby wishing everyone and family having a very happy new year.

All the best to you and family!