Merry christmas

So I hereby wishing everyone a very happy merry christmas.
Went Cameron highland,thinking it was going to be a very nice trip,
but it end up,suck! So suck up!

The house is a house alright,but we have to do housekeep for them.
Aunty cook for us,clean house and the bed over there speechless.
19 of us stuck in a small house.

Parents cant take it,got back home today.
haha. But I enjoy the weather there.

Once again,Merry Christmas and happy holiday everyone!!

Lost

Something or someone was lost yesterday!
Forever.
Good bye little unborn one.
Sorry for not giving you a chance to the world,
Is our fault,but that is the best way for you.
I did not mean to make her made this decision,
but it have to be done so.

The guilty is a heavying burden,
that have to be carry for sometime.

Don't know why feel?

Don't know why feel so desperate!

Don't know why feel so lonely!

Don't know why feel so angry!

Don't know why feel so tired!

Don't know why feel so fed up!

Anyone out there feel the same?

Wish to have someone I can share things with!

Everyone here have someone to share it with,

beside me!

Brand new me!

Got a headache last night.
When to bed very early.
Guess why right.
Haha.

Got all my stress out,now is like a brand new me.
So happy and free.
@Maison,shake off all my stress.
Well,the dance floor not very big,music not very nice.
But I get to go with him,it was the first time.
He never have the intention to let me know where is he going,
so I plan not to know too,and I plan my own.
How to know,we were going to the same place.
So we jump in with him,and we all got high.
It was fun. Got all my stress shaken away.

Mum and dad got my a laptop.
Yeah my own lappy.
Thank you mummy and daddy.

Having a very nice moment now in my life.

P/S
Happy birthday to Chia
Happy belated birthday to WK

Under the Shadow

I'm suffocating!
Stay under her shadow,
From don't know when start I was fighting to get my own light.
It was so long ago and it is still going on.
No matter what I have done, still trap under her.

Whenever I look up she is the only thing I can see.
Everyone will praise whatever she do,love what she do.
Whatever I do is always not good enough.
Sometime,drive myself to the edge to just to get their praise,
but it will never arrive.

I remember how I wish mum came along with me
when I first study at KL.
How they trusted her with almost everything.
Even she did wrong they will not scold or nag her as much as me.
Even I complaint how much about her,they will still help her.

How I wish they can open toward us!
The younger one are sufferring, yet they don't know.

Is true,they love us.
But they love her more till is so obvious.

Sad.

New Moon

Watched it yesterday.

Story line is abit different from the book,

yet still acceptable but the ending I have to say is not very good.

Overall 3 star~

Can't wait for the third movie.

Going back to KL today.

I have a feeling it is going to be a long long week.

Well well still have to embrace it with a smile.

Just do it!

X.O.X.O

Stop All This Shit~

What the hell is going on with my life?
It feel so shitty!
Someone once so dear to me now have change into someone I dont know anymore.
Why people can change just a *snap*.
Things you have said are empty words now.
They no long have any value and dont worth anything.
It hurt so badly see thing have became like this.

Adult, I'm not one yet.
But dont trust what they say, cause is all lie!
They teach us never to tell lie but in the end they are the one who is.
Bluff, us teenager and kids.
What punishment they get?

They always compare us with senior,sister even my friend.
What is this?
I am who I am! Everyone is different and special in their way.
This is what all adult say but yet,they still do all the oppsite.
Come on,sometime slow down and
think what you all have teach us are you learning it.

When will all this stop?
Assignment is also killing me slowly!

A very damn stress girl now
Bye.

Found this nice poem from a book

Everyone person born in this

world represents

something new ,

Something that never

existed before,

something original

and unique.

Martin buber

Tired

Sleepy sia~
Last minute rush assignment is so tiring.
Slept at 4 am,woke up around 9 to continue with it.
In the end,I think the assignment is not a well done job.
*sads*

Will be at Xi's house whole day.
Drama-ing maybe,movie-ing later.
~Cant wait for 2012 and new moon~

Don't understand.
Why someone can be so in love with you,
but you misuse them?
Why sometime have to ask him do all the stuff?
when he is needed you will act all cutie to get it,once things is done then is good bye.
Why some people can have so nice people around,yet some dont have.
Don't understand o.

Everything is done now.
TaTa For Now.
X.O.X.O

New gossp. Life

Haiyo yo. I know I very long never update. So here I am. ^^
So so,the lately gossip.

The love bird,got some down matter that it is hard to slove.
It did not end up good,as I can say.
When he tell me he was going to break the relationship I was not shock.
I dont know why too,it is that like my six sense have told me.
So I was very calm listening to his reason.
But is a sudden news to her. So as her darling I sure know what she thinking and need.

When near to the pool to cry but was chase by the guard. To the garden.
Start to talk and talk and talk.
Kim come over and start to talk and listen too.
The end is she wanted to go to talk to him face to face.
So we three girl go over to his place and everything was pour out.
Finally. *Clap Clap* It was a happy ending.
Things was settle and done.
Love bird, try to talk dont run away.
Kim and me always here to help if you two fall. ^^

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Back to me!

* Three cheers for me*
My bali trip at last was on!
It was cancel and postponed so many time. *sad*
But the trip was in my most busy week of all my study week!
Assignment deadline was everywhere.
Is like land boom. Scary!
Anyhow I did try to help as much as I can before leaving.
So the trip was enjoying.
Though I only get to be on land not sea.
Grands,worry about water. So have to avoid water.

Did lotsa shopping! Learn how to chop the seller in price form.
Haha. I did a good job in it.

So is roughly things like that.
TTFN.
X.O.X.O

In a piece of mess

So here I'm again~ going to complaint about life.

Few words to describe.

Mess.Sucks.Stress.Speechless.

I have be down for few days.

Xi got so worry of me,sorry darling.

I promise you,once I know what I want to do I will recover.

Studies. I have give up.

No mood to study at all.

But now I will have to re -try again everything.

Cause there are people supporting me.

Thank you.

New updates

Here is something for the new born couple~!
Good luck and be happy forever o~

So last week kinda lotsa of things happen,
Lian Lian was kinda stress.
The new girlfriend was even stress-er.
For others is just stress.
Why so stress??
Cause the news was still unacceptable some say.

As for LL,she was stressing something else but we misunderstood.
Sorry,sweetie. Our bad.
As for us'll is just the matter of time to accept and move along.
So please all we need is time okie,darling.
Don't worry too much.

FYI darling - he is a very nice guy,don't worry, you will not have the chance to be les.
Haha.

Last night it was a hell of a night~
AAR was awesome.
Was so happy I got to spend time with him.
And so is my darling.

So lets review back last week.
Monday night movie - Pandorum, a very stressful movie yet not bad.
Tuesday - Nothing much
Wednesday night movie again - Jennifer's Body, Megan Fox is hot but story line was just um um. Thursday night pasar malam then movie again at home.
Friday got to go back hometown~

Haha..
Overall the things I did was movie-ing.
Kinda fell in love with movie now.

Thats all for today.
X.O.X.O

Worthwhile News

So last night almost everyone is excited about the NEWS!

Why all want to know?Haha.

Actually if you just sit and see my gang is very easy to spot.

Someone is acting extremely good all the sudden,

and also keep hanging around her and at the back of her.

Haha.

But I guess all dlm is very excited and curious about it.

So everyone be patient and wait lor.

So happy everyone is so happy.

If you want to know RM5 per letter.

Unacceptable

This thing happen just now not very long ago.
I just got to know this news.
This news come to me like a gust of big wind.
Hitting me in the face.
Never think of it will happen but it have.
Half of me is really happy for you,
But the other half is like what the hell have happen.

Like what I have been told,it already happen and nothing can be changed.
Well I guess the only way is just to take it but I need time.
Will I lose you? You told me you will not leave me,and I trust you.
But there is too many feeling going all around.

Please take very good care of my BFF heart.
She is a very nice girl,if you dare to do anything like what he have done.
You will die! Very hard~!

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I been very stress lately.
After my result came out,I been stressing about it.
But not infornt of my friends.
I didnt do very well in it,kinda disappointed in it.

I thought I can forget about it when hang out with friends,
but I gues not really.
I got home is even stress-er! Parents.. Haix
Cant they understand?
I did study but my paper is all in one day~!
I can study full of this sub the other will not study so much.
During exam I hardly sleep.

So stress for result is one story the others,
they always said once I come back this cant use that cant use.
They know how damn sensitive I am!
So I have a break down.

Sometime I just so hate my self.

I am so useless..

Kinda lonely.
After all this happen I figure out.
Hey how to process all this?? I wanted to find someone to talk to.
Beside my BFF now,cause this is about her.

I have someone in mind yet is a unreachable and untouchable person.

I miss you

The Beginning!

The whole new beginning of life.
A new page of life.

So this week is my first week back from my holiday,
Things seem fine here beside the timetable I'm having now.
This first week is more relaxing then the coming ones.
Only lectures and english class need to be attend.

Yesterday,gone out with Ming Hui and Vien,
I haven't see them since like forever!!
Missed them,and just nice I met Vien and this idea pop up,
going out with them for lunch.

We did! But just not lunch but movie!
Yeah! My favorite! movies!
So we went for Sorority Row!
It was a freaking scary movie!
The whole cinema was screaming like hell!
But it was nice!

Tonight we went pasar malam to have dinner and a small shopping!
Then we plan to have movie night!
We went to KLCC to have sorrogate!
It was BORING!
I almost fall asleep in my comfie chair with my baby bear in hand!

So now I'm gossiping with gossip girl season 3!
In love with this drama now!

So have a very good night or good morning everyone!
X.O.X.O

The End

Here is it,the end of everything.
I have to leave everything back of my memory,
kept in my treasure box.

So on the 1st of oct,we have a trip to Sungkai.
It is not a full prove plan cause we still got so many thing haven't done,
but we still go on with it, Kim always enjoy a spontaneous trip.
I when over to Xi's at night so there we can leave early next morning.
I was in charge of the tit bit,when I reached Xi house her mum ask why I bring so much stuff??
Haha..I brought two big bag of tit bit, people there are big white shark~
So I have too..

Xi woke up 6am and me 6.30am,
Leave the by 7am sharp then before 8am we reach Darren house.
We agree to meet at Darren house by 8am,but end up waiting for each other, till around 11 plus~
We'll leave once everything is done.
Reached Sungkai around 1 plus, everyone was so excited!
So then everyone wanted to jump in the pool but not Lian,Xi and myself~

We three girl when to the other small pool to just soak our leg.
Though there were trees but we were sweating,is like the water is boiling us..

Then after all the crazyness they have,all screaming for food.
Poor driver,after playing still have to drive to find food.
So we were at Bidor and have our lunch then during there,
we decide to go Cameron,everyone want to stay a night there.
As a logistics student we never let anyone down,
we got a number in a swift and start calling and making booking for an apartment.
We make teachers proud~

The crisis begin- everyone have to call home and tell about the changes in plan.
KY- aunty said NO have to go back
Hon Un- telling mum he was in ipoh
Kim- Staying at kampar
As for others is Cameron.

About the NO part,well what to do it,by that time it was already 4 plus.
KY decide to take bus back home,everyone start to re-think the plan.
In the end KY insist we go on without him,so we agree but still friend right.
His bus was at 6pm we'll waited the bus with him.

After all this is Cameron time, it was so dark during going up.
So many turn,Hon Un and Xi was fighting in the car,
Kim got so stress and asked them not to play but help to see.
We reached up there around 9pm almost 10pm.
Have dinner and head back to apartment.

Bath . Watch TV . Eat . Read book . Sleep
Then next day breakfast then morning market and BOH tea field.
Then we'll heading back to Hon Un house.
We switched car at Rawang.
Darren,Hon Un,Xi and me in one car heading for Hon Un house.
The others was subang.

The fun part~
Our car was out of petrol!
Thanks to someone who never tell about it~
On the way we was hoping there is a petrol station but NO
OMG~ we were so scare the car will stop..
So we asking the toll lady where to got petrol station.
Guess where.. Shah Alam~
*FAINT*
We still took the wrong turn.. *Double Faint*
We end up at Bukit Jelutong lucky it was near to Hon Un house.
At last,we reached about 7pm plus.


Got home by 9pm.. -.-"
What a trip!

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Yesterday!
Happy Mid Autumn!
Haved a BBQ party at my house.
Mostly is Eve friend, it was fun.
I have nap before the party,once I woke up I don't feel so well but still went down.
My sister all know,they pamper me well.
Cooking for me and let me take what they have cook.
So I was like a princess,where ever I walk I see food I just grab!


It is the end of my holiday!
The new sem is here so I have to start packing my stuff and also my mood!
Good bye to everything I have during holiday!

Lets move it!!

Another few more hours we will be going for the trip!
It is kinda my second trip with my friends..
First one is with my high school mate and now is with college mate..
Even though,this trip is not fully furnish plan but it still a plan..
And everyone is kinda cant wait for it..
Cause maybe we cant have time but plan like this,due to the timetable for coming sem suckx.
But i will not let my last few days of holiday go down the drain just without a fight of fun!
So everyone add oil for a better tomorrow!!

Lets rock this trip everyone!!
X.o.X.o

happy dinner!!

So today the whole family including all the uncle and aunty was at this dinner..
This special golden 50th wedding anniversary of my grands..
It was a very grand dinner..
And we grandchildren all make grands so touch..
We sang song for them and the best part is always the last part..
We all grandchildren took the long life bun and sang the wedding song,
And get to kiss them.. Haha..
Is was a very good night..
I hope they can be here with me forever..
They are the best grands i ever had..
X.o.x.o

happy as a clam

So got my E71 so very happy,but the happiness has not end..
My house got wireless d..haha..
Got to online when hanging downstair and infornt of tele!!

Going for a one day trip to sungkai and ipoh~
This thursday let's move it babe!! Haha...

So so

Come back from my holiday trip d..
Well overall we have fun..
Took lotsa picture but is in facebook..

Now at home relaxing~ ^^
Hope everyone having a very nice day~

FYI..
I got a new phone..
Well is the same phone that I give it to the toilet to msg me..
E71 ^^ very in love with this phone..

X.O.X.O

Can't wait

Uh~ really can't wait to go for my holiday~

PD here I come~

So today went shopping with mum to get food~

Went to Tesco to get a branch of food for the trip and for my holiday at home..

Also went to a wholesaler to get tit bits.. Yeah for the holiday..

TV, PC, tit bit and all the time I have.. It is paradise~!

Me with all my favorite at home..

Hahaha.. So happy...

But please don't be jealous okie..

I earn hard for this..

X.O.X.O

YEAH~ *high five*

Yeah~ At last the World War 3 of TARC has ended..
Now holiday lu~ *High five*

First thing to do during holiday is going go PD~
Then have a very nice and long, 2 weeks holiday.. ^^

Lately my friends have stuck in the fate of unlucking-ness
First KY motor gone bye bye lor..
Then is Lian,IC also gone bye bye,after two days later ID bye bye..
Then Xi handphone after exam come out also go bye bye..
WTH~so damn unlucking lor..

Well anyway I hope their luck will come back very soon and fast..

It is a 911 case o... ^^
Good luck o~ All the best~

Most of all.. TARCian~ Happy holiday~!

I hope everyone enjoy the holiday,

and Selamat Hari Raya...

Was kick off bed this morning..
Lian was a kicker and snatcher,I guess..
She practicality kick me up and still do kicking even I'm up..

Woke up about 7am..
Don't have the mood to study for my second last paper..
Was in the holiday mood d..
We are like planning a trip when exam is not even over yet..
Basically still in WIP..

Then once I woke up and is stuck with Xi lappie,
guess what.. Gossip Girl time..
I was glue to the bed with her lappie,even Lian was kicking me..


Till around 11 am when everyone was up and getting ready to go campus..
Des,KY,Xi and me went MCD to have our brunch even though is 12.30
Then we all decide to come over to my house to study..
So at first was only Des,KY,Jayson,Joyce, and me..
After awhile it end up,quater of the class was in my house..

It is just like a mini close party..
It was fun,
*tink*
The light bulb was brighten..
Des and I was like thinking why not throw one more party,
before the sem start..
Well this plan was WIP again,due to exam..

So we are still processing the plan all..
So once there is a confirmation guy you will be inform..
In the mean time stay tune..
X.O.X.O

Long story~

14 of september, my house haved a BBQ party..
So we all have fun I think,my friend was there so is my sis's friends

*Bink*
The party only like started in a bink of eye the food *tink tink*
Gone..
Finish already..very scary o.. all like dinosaur..
So what to do have to ask people to get more food lor..
After all this crisis there is one more on the way..

Second crisis is hearing from KY he kinda have a small accident,
he hurt he wrist and till today his hands is big..
Like piggy hand..due to the blood I think..

Third crisis is hearing from KY again,
his motor key was place at the motor since afternoon..
Is like OMG.. when we go over his motor is gone..
So we went to the police station straight..


After all this crisis,and the party also ended..
Then I and Ling start to study from 1am till 4 am...
Woo is damn tired d after the party..
But have to still study lor..

Sis's friends at the backyard..

At my balcony.. becareful guys,someone might call 999 o..

Head up..a shoot from balcony..

Cheers up guys.. the drinks for the nights..

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I cooked spaghetti for all my friends at home,as their dinner..

My sis then was asking why I so good cook for them?

Guess what I can not really answer that..

I don't know why I did that too..

Anyway,KY help alot too..Thank you KY..

The spaghetti was nice.. ^^

X.O.X.O

Nice Scene

One of the Sunday,mum book places to go to this buddhist thingy..

To set animal free to it actually habitat, the lake was huge,is humongous..

I and my sis was thinking in german that is the loc..

Maybe we here also have one,though here one is smaller then the actual one..

Then we when to a waterfall stream to have fun..

It was beautiful..

So now I going to let the picture do the talking.. ^^

This is the lake I saying this is only a part of it..

This is the stream we were in.. Nice view right?

This is what is in the water..

It end up a very nice day due to all the nice view I have see..

Sleepless Nights

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

Since the war started,everyone has sleepless night..

With all the chapters and ton of theory to remember,

it is tiring...

Today I finish my fourth paper,which is law.
A very heavy subject,ton of section and term to remember..
OMG! I am glad I strike one more paper out..
Last night,Ling come over to study..
erm,can say is like this but there is also one other reason ba..

*Flash Back*

Pass few days,during my stay in MU almost all of us(friends) was there..

KY,Chia,Lian,Ling,Xi,Me,Kim and Tokie..

We was going to have our first paper that is FOM,

Kim was not having any paper so she wanted to let Ling lappie..

She was begging around 5 mins, but the only she get back is FU~

Well is kinda rude to say in a way,cause if you don't feel like letting just say so cause she will understand mah..

In a way,is true once the lappie is rub,Ling the genie will come out ..

She will stick to her lappie 24/7 .. so it end up a bloody blood war,where two got hurt in feeling..

*End of flash back*

So from that day once Kim is in MU Ling will not go over..
Yesterday Kim was there,so beside hostel only place to study is here..
She came over,and hang around and waited for Chia to arrive.
We start to study around 10pm..
After a few hours both of them was saying hungry and then ate maggie ~
Then Chia said can't insert anymore,have to go smoke..
Then after that.. He started to grab my house black label to drink -.-"

We coutinue to study till 3am,Tokie came join us..

She was the empty one,not even one section or idea about law..

What to do our Law God,Chia have to start to push in all the fornt chapter into her..

She go so blur after the second chapter.. ^^ poor thing her..

During the morning,she told she don't feel like going for the paper..
We was thinking she was joking but..she really did not turn up..
What a waste..but what is done is done..

World War 3 of TARC

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

Started my final for some day..

Another 4 more paper to go till the end..

Hope I can get through all the paper..

Good luck to everyone and to all..

All the best to you'll

Though is war, I am so obsesse with gossip girl and bleach~

Ah~! Can't have enough of it.. ^^

Well,can't watch too much right?!

So will control lor.. ^^

Planning~

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

I want to slim down..

Working on a diet now..

Morning and evening will jog..

Eat less,drink alots of water and eat lots of fruit..

Well~I am working toward what I plan..

Best of luck to myself~!

My Days

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

Got a message from a friend,

The message make me very happy..

Cause when he is having trouble he still remember me..

Even though we bullshit alot,but it make me happy..

He don't treat me as cold as last time..

At least we joking and bullshiting..

I confess something to him..

And have guessed the answer but I just think I should say it out..

And we are friends now I think..

No matter what is the end,

telling him and having him here make everything ok..

And it make me being very happy and being in a very good mood..

I went to have my hair cut..
Kinda short,but well I like it..
thinking maybe keep it longer then can have other style later..
Then gone out with mum..
To get some new clothes..
But now at home resting cause not very well..

Can't wait for tuesday..

I can feel the crazyness and the happy I going to have..

^^ going to celebrate Yoon Chi belated birthday..

Kimichi will be going sure fun..

Hoping hon un and ray will be coming..

without them no fun lor..

Miss them.. ^^

New song that I'm loving it~

• Falling for you by Colbie Caillet
• Be with you by Akon
• No boundaries by Keri Allen
• Goodbye by Kristinia Debarge
• Zero Gravity by David Archuleta
• I gotta Feeling by Black Eyes Peas
• I wanna by The All-American Reject
• You belong with me by Taylor Swift

Present Life..

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

The present life I am having now~

TARC world war 3 coming soon..

Why so fast?

We just finished all the assignment,coursework and presentation..

Hardly have time to play and rest yet..

But the day is getting nearer and nearer..

It is making me go crazy~

Week by week it fly by..

Can someone freeze the time for me?

It is not easy..

For me life is getting harder each day,

more and more obstacle infornt of me..

Very mess up in my life..

Studies,friends,and guys..

Is killing me..

Sometime thinking having someone virtual that understand me,

is a good thing..

But when having someone intangible well think is not so good..

Cause too much thing to explain and say..

Don't really like to explain myself to someone I don't like..
And if that person ask more,I will get piss off..
Cause everyone have a life,so I don't have to tell you everything if I don't feel like too..
So stop asking~ When I am ready I will tell..

So lately class have a newly couple just born..

Congrats to them.. Hoping everything go well with them..

^^

I am still thinking should I start to talk to my friend,
about things that have been haunting me?
Cause I scare if I say d,I will lost them..
Sometime I think I really suck cause like only me having problem..
Don't know how and what to do..

----> Count down <----

27 days till the war arrive

3 of sept 2009

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Attention to all TARCianz..

All the best in exam~ Good luck everyone~

Imperfect

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

This word have drill in all of our head since we are small..
Yes,in this world there are no human perfect..
Everyone of us is learning to be better but not perfect yet.

We are just the same..
Telling you this about you,just try to listen,
and be better but not blaming on the person..
That is your mouth so is up to you to say what you want about me..
I can not stop you..
But sometime I just so sad,cause you don't understand at all..
It is just tired to keep explaining what I do..

I know what I want and needs..
You too have your life but it seem like you are lost in it..
The words hanging there saying you know..
but the truth is you know nothing..

Sick of being control by people..

Sick of explaining so much..

Sick of those *!@# poeple around

It is making me sick..

Guess what ?!?!

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

Well..thinking what to guess eh.. ^^
I am at klang now.. Haha..
Tomorrow going back to KL d..
Very lame right thinking.. is ok my family also think that..

So wonder why am back?
Tell you ar..cause today is Xi Xi grandma birthday..
So they having dinner,well want to send a girl back home alone..
It is impossible...
So I tag along,this time I was the driver..
She was having a very bad headache..
So have to rest rest lor..but how to know..
We gossiping so much till reach home -.-"
Pei seh o Xi~ ^^

Well,got home now,relaxing now..
Haha,finished my assignment..
Every little burden of my is lower down..
But the biggest stone is still in the fornt..
I will try to move that away ASAP~
Hoping I can do it too.. ^^
Now is have to study for my law paper..
Test next week -.-"
Then I will be a free lady..
Till the TARC war arrive again..
It is coming soon.. this is the warning~

JIA YOU EVERYONE IN EVERYTHING~

Todays

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

So my tuesday morning are like every tuesday morning,

Going over to Xi Xi house and come back kl..

So today she plan to skip class..

Make me so want to too..

But due to my last min assignment,I don not have the chance.

Haix..

So go to class but it have cancel..

Haha.. What we do.. Well..

Like normal girl nothing to do then gossip lor..

I say my baby~ She is in a relationship now..

But not much people know about it..

Only some close friend know..

Well like every relationship sure have prolem..

Sure have to find way to slove it..

Any way I wish her all the best lor.. ^^

Ok back to my assignment..

BIG problem.. Not enough point..

Can faint lor.. My brain have been fully use up..

Have a very BIG headache..

Feel so dizzy but still have to go on..

What to do..last min only do..

Well lucky I got few lucky star with me..

Helped me alot.. ^^

Thank you KY and KC ^^

Very grateful have them if not I sure can not finish..

Well..now my assignment is in WIP statue.

Hope can finish in time and send to print..

Wish me luck~ cause I need every luck I can get now.. ^^

Add and plus oil everyone~ Jia you~ Gambateh~

Heart broken once again~

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

Everything is not the same again..
Everything have change..
I sat and think for a very long time what I am to do..
I try to clam down..but I can't really do so..
My heart have been torn into piece again..
Once again the heartache is back..

We use to be close.warm.happy.
What have happen was so sudden,
maybe is me,myself to blame all this.
But I can't seem to understand what have happen..
Thinking we shared something so special that is hard to break,
guess I was wrong..

The space and silent have full up between us..
All we have now is cold.silent.tears.

Her tears mean everything to you..
You did not even notice the tears I have fall.
And that show you have change..
Everything is not the same again..

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Got my leg hurt due to kicking the container..

I got very angry on saturday, cause of my shoe.

I got angry with my mum and sis..

Just that day don't feel right..

Then end up every one also have the moment of this..

My mum saying it must be a full moon..

swt..what it have to do with it I thinking..

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Wishing I have just act like nothing have happen..

Maybe will ease my pain that I having..

I'm tired d..

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

Today just finished my BLO test..

I think I did not do well..

Haix.. sads.

Today also got presentation,so done one and one more to go..

Lately I feel this..

No use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through

I've never been anywhere cold as you
You never did give a damn thing, honey
But I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died
Died for you (died for you)
Oh, what a shame
What a rainy ending give to a perfect day
Every smile you fake is so condescending
Counted all the scars you made
Now that I'm sitting her thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you
Taylor Swift - Cold as you

This is what I feel and want to say to someone..
That someone make me feel this way..
She found someone better..
Every smile she fake is so condescending..
And I am counting the scars she made..
But she will never know how is it feel like..

Life is so hard,

There is never a easy life..

I feel so tired..

Fighting for all those thing that maybe I will never get..

Everyone tell me to keep going,but can I sit and rest?

I really want to keep myself up for few days..

Keeping away from the world. the peoples. the works. the feelings.

Life O~ Life~

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

Life is never easy to live ar..
Having alot of stress lately..
Assignment,coursework,homework,studies,presentation..
Now rush assignment for Law,and power point for BLO and my SCO coursework..

Well is not all bad thing..

Today just got a new PSP..

White in colour,the lastest one..

Kinda loving it now..

But dont have time to use it yet..

My friends all jia you lor for tomorrow coursework..

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

Got tired of driving..

Got tired of msging..

Got tired of reading..

Got tired of watching..

Got tired of typing..

Got tired of writing..

Got tired of thinking..

Got tired of feeling..

Got tired of missing..

Got tired of almost everything..

This few day at home,feel very tired ar..
Thought at home very comfortable,nice and happy..
But will miss the freedom I have there..
But having the freedom make me miss home..
The thing I have is really so many count also cant finish..
But after all this I want to have a nice holiday..
If can,cause of studies sure can't..
Even a day also is good enough..

Suck.

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

Arh~ I am very stress now...
Got a new pc and it suck cause all my stuff is not here..
So many people in my house and the kids keep shouting..
Can't have a nice time to watch my drama..

Arh..right now this moment suck alot..
I want to angry but there is not reason for me to angry..
Hate it..

♥~* My Life~ My World*~♥

I saw him again today..
I know I will see him once in a while cause our class are only oppsite..
But when my life have become as calm as the wave..
There he is standing there,never change..
Still is he but the relation we have have change..
We are nothing now,not friend nor stranger..

I don't know how to face him..
All I can do is just keep walking and stay strong..
Never look back or him..
I told myself 'good girl you did it'
You did not look at him..

But I still miss the us..yet nothing can be done..

What have done is the best way to done it..

Lately very stress cause of the heavy studies..

Alots of assignment to do and lots of test too..

Got very stress up and buried under tons of book..

I really dont have friends like them..
They have walking beside me for almost a year plus..
They see me happy,sad,cry,crazy,and angry..
They are there always pull me up from the darkness..
And always there for me..
Well sometime I will rise my voice but after awhile we are ok..
Sometime I intend to get angry at her but she still will come back..

But we have our weakness..

We know each other but there are something we still keep from each other..

We still havent reach the level where we can talk about everything yet..

But I hope we can get to there one day..

ok? Xi,Ling and Lian?

Thank for staying with me till now..

I know sometime I am very bit*hy but you'll still will be here for me..

*hugs* *kiss*

Falling in love with Taylor Swift songs..

Lost . Mood-less . Speech-less

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

I felt I really sucks now..

So hate myself now..

Holding on so many things I am very tired..

Always have to put sense to people head..

Making sure I don't hurt them..

But by doing this,it make me more hate myself..

Cause sometime I just feel I am so fake,can't the truth..

They say they have feeling for me,

but I don't.. and I don't really want to hurt them..

I just so lost..

Everyone have feeling so sometime is different..

Today they say they like me,the next day is so cold to me..

I have said,if you wanna wait you have to wait for a long time,

but by waiting maybe the chance will not come also..

I feel like a bit*h now..
I just so have to go bother every little thing people do to me..
It's hurt very badly.. I try to let go, but, it just stay there..
I really don't want to know everything is happening in you'll..
But it just I know you'll..one is since we are both..one is my best friend..
It's hard when you'll fight about this matter..
I felt sorry.. I will try not to know..

Sometime I am wondering what am I to poeple,to friends?

I really want to know..

am I a friend, a bit*h, a enemy, a useable human??

Can anyone tell me??

I am so lost in all this feeling..
Can I just go numb? Haix..

I guess not I have to deal with this all..
Hope I will not hurt anyone in this process..
In my process of growing..

Todays

♥~* My Life~ My World *~♥

Wah..the world is a very dangerous place..

Lately we always get from news is all about H1N1..

It already hit KL and Klang..haix..sad..

Well I think lately I will not always online d..
Due to homework,test,and assignment..
I got very stress cause of studies..
Is already week 5 yet I still trying to adapt to the subjects..

I find it very hard to understand the subjects..
And alot of reading is needed..so is very hard..
I found out I am so inbalance..
I can read twilight saga for hours without leaving the book...
But when it come to read text book..only 10 mins I will run away..

Today we all know our SCO result..
In our gang Cong got the highest,follow by Xi then me and Lian and Ling..
Ling was weeping in class today..cause she got the lowest among the whole group..
She don't really understand SCO,but her calculation is very good..
When it come to logistics paper she is not good in it..

We all comfort her..cause if for me I also will be sad..
But when come of think of it,this is our first coursework,
we be still having one more paper next week..
So we told her lets study together so she can do better..
And the assignment have to put in more effort d..

There are so many subject to worry..
Law,Marketing,Logistics,Supply Chain and Tamadun Islam..
Stress kau yer..
And the way of answering is also not easy..
But I will not give up..

Ling Ling don't give up ok..
We will help you,I help you keep your laptop warm k..
I will play with your laptop and keep it happy..
Haha.. We jia you together ar..