Disappointed.Grateful.

Why is there people who can't just grow up??
Yes being small and innocent is good.
But as age catch up and the mature of the brain,
can't you just accept??
Don't understand why people act this way!!
Plus you are out,no longer in.
There are people who watch what are you doing,
so is what you did to your friend.
It was so shameful and childish with the act.
I really hope you will wake up one day.
Haix..

The final news I have got,but is not a happy one.

I tryin to build a wall,but is not very hard.

Cause the wall is growing itself too.

I believe as time goes it will fade away.

But is happy to know there is someone like this.

Someone who can make me feel that way again.

It was so long ago, I almost forget what is the feel

and how does it fill me up.

Thank you for painting my page in colour again!!

Sign off,
Jess

Many many feeling!!!

With all the small hand touch,

small talk,

small laugh,

it make me crazy.

Very insane with him.

o(>.<)o

Would I ever really do give up on him??

God know!!

So lately,I have been damn busy with work.
It make me miss my peeps so much!!
I really need my peeps!!
Miss you'll !!

I'm worry I will get carry away with working.
My mum ask me to keep in mind that,I will be leaving one day.
So never get carry away.
To me is not the pay but is the experience that I'm addicted.

So much feeling in a single page..
Haha..
Anyway,I will find a day to get all my peeps together.
So is a solutions for the workin n studyin part.

Jess

Thank GOD!!

o(>.<)o
Just when I wanna give up GOD give me a gift!!
He will be at the department for awhile more.
Cause aunty Alice having chicken pox,
so he will have to take over her place.

So here goes again,
but I guessing nothing going to change.
Cause still cold with me alots.
o(T.T)o

Jess

Giving up mood!!

Well too bad..
Today lunch never eat anything..
and also never get what I was hoping for..

Totally in the mood of giving up now.
Cause got shooting by him..
Always say I bully people and
don't new people a chance.
Is so not true!! Blek!

But is still nice to hear that people do call me as his.
Girlfriend,future wife and stuff.

It does make me have a short moment of happiness!

All the crap I'm saying now of giving up is

COMING TRUE!!

cause we will not have much chance to speak or meet anymore.

So is better think of things I have in hand than things is

OUT OF GRAB!!

Jess

Excited.Giving up soon.

I'm going to have lunch with him tomorrow!!

Gosh!! Damn excited!!

Well,kinda bug him into having lunch with me!!

But I'm still happy and glad to have it with him!!

o(^.^)o cant wait!!

Axiously waiting for tomorrow!!

Hope everything will be fine!!

But after wednesday,everything will be over.

At a snap of a finger,guessing I should do stop too.

With all the crazy thinkin and feeling I having.

Even though is fun to have feeling like this after so long time.

Really happy for this moment.

He help me changes alot,indirectly! ^^

Jess.

Puppy love all over again!!

It feel like having my puppy love all over again!!

With those crazy mesmerise eyes.

Cool style.

Secretive personality.

Cute smile.

I make me go all like spining around,

having a lot of butterfly in my tummy!

Gosh!! I'm so died meat!!

I can't stop this feeling but I have to..

Sad part!!

I think he have a girlfriend!!

Can I do something bad??

I wanna pray to god of all love!!

Make him fall in love with me!!!

Cause I'm falling fast!!

Like express!!

Please!! I'm begging!!

^^

So my type and taste!!

AHHHH!!!

Love bird,

Jess

Lil deep dark sercet of mine!!

I never one anyone to know about it.
It is really deep inside.

They became like this is cause of no change in him.
He is still him,and he will be the same forever in my postion. (mum said)
Is true. If you dont wish to change nothing can be done.

I think mum have enough d,since I was small they were going on with the same topic.
I'm this big,they no longer have to be together cause of us.
Only Sherlyn will be sad cause this happen when she was so young.
My mum said " I'm suffering."
I wanted to stop it,and the only way is to do so.

I dont know how to face my dad now.
Looking at him,I'm thinkin of other things that he have done.
He is a good father no denial, but not a good husband I guess.
He have promise but no promises have been hold.

My mum think is time to let go,put an end toward all.
She is not happy,so is my dad.

Tough is hard on me, but I have told myself I cant be selfish anymore.
They have done enough for us.
Is time for them to do something for themself.
Is their life.

Is happy that I really get to talk to Xi.
She really can make thing so much easy for me to accept.

Life have to go one.
The things still happening.
Yet I still have to put on a smile mask to face the world.

Sign off,
Jess