198th Stops

I never come to think of that, during my life time people or things which are too precious for me to lose will be lost. I always take things for granted like they are suppose to be there for me whenever I want them to be. My mami always remind us that we also have to be thankful and humble. I keep that in mind but sometime it just slip off my mind. Comparing to many others, I'm far beyond happy and loved by family and friend and even my lovely little Poppy.
So main point of me writing this entry, this thought came to me all of a sudden while I was sitting on the floor patting little Poppy. I look at her pure and innocent eyes, I saw love. She is now part of my life, she wait for me to come home everyday from my classes, she wait for me to wake and play with her, she will try to annoy me whenever she can (haha), and the most importantly she never stop showing me that she love me very much. I wonder what will happen to me if, if that one day came, that she no longer be waiting for me to come home from classes or work, she is no longer being under my chair. The feeling kills me. Just by thinking of it I have tear in my eyes,literally, if it really happen I'm not sure what I will do.
Family is the most important thing to me, especially my gramps and my parents. They are the essential of my life! I never ever want to lose them, I understand that everything have to come to an end, but I just cant bare the cost of it, so I pray everyday hoping that nothing of mine have to come to the end. You can say that I'm selfish but I really do love them too much to let them go, no longer being with me physically.
Same goes with my friends.
I might be a self loading girl, some might say I'm self center, no matter what others say or think, I might hurt me but I know will heal under my family,friend and Poppy wings of love.
I just want to take other entry to be thankful and grateful for all the things I have in life.
Thank you!

Family Picture! <3