TARC world war 3~

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Well the war begin on the 23th april 2009..
Tarc war 3 for me...

Have my first paper,Fundamental of Finance.
last min study,it is not so good but luck I got good friends..
Thank you all for helping~!!
The paper was on thursday went back to kl at wednesday...
Study like a mad cow on that day,from noon till midnight...
From study room to lian lian house then titiwangsa mcd..

But at least it pay off,I think~ ^^
Can't sleep enough or properly lately,making me too tired to study..
Due to exam and house moving...
Too much to do at one time so my brain did not really rest...
Haix,save me~ I need at least a week sleep to replace back....

Sleep~~~!!!

Good luck to all my friends who is have exam...
All the best to all...
Have a nice day

Going back to KL later having my OB later...
Jia you lor~~^^

My Weekends~

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Sorry so long never on..

At home I sure don't have the time to on..

Cause Nigel will be using the computer alot... ^^

Anyway let's catch up together~ ^^

----------------- At lavender ----------------------

Saturday was I day out with mum and sis...

Went shopping at Jusco Bukit Tinggi~

And went lavender to have lunch~

Tea time~ The whole set was so nice and very graceful... Love it~ ^^












Mum's coffee,same yet expensive,but she loved it... ^^



~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Happy Birthday ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
On saturday,18 april 2009...
Shu Jing Jie birthday...
Jie,Me, Eve was invited...
Well that night I drove us there,when jie friends all know they was shock...
Haha,they ask why don't let your sis drive...
It is just the same thing right?? Haha



Eve and me getting ready to go party~



The birthday cakey~


It is ice-cream~

Very tastey~ Yummy yummy~

Jie have 2~ Haha~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Sunday ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


We went swimming in the morning...
Then got home started to msg my buddy all...
Cause is so boring! I want to do something...
Msg-ing for sometime,in the end I went for movie with cy~
Fast and Furious... Haha...
Then end my day with CSI...

Days at Sri Rampai

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So this whole week I will be at Sri Rampai...
So exam is very near but yesterday we was studying for ob...
Well at least I still study abit right...

I have a very woderful day at here,
have nice meal yesterday from the mamak..
Kim was here,ama bf was here too...then Di Di came over to study also.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Drama Time~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Lately there are thing happen in here...
As people here said,the drama is back on again...
Haha,is not that easy to understand the drama...
There is a girl here have dated kinda alot of guy...
And all this happen is always,when she have a bf and the other guy will flirt with her..
Well I know is ok,but they flirt till like a couple...
The feeling they give people is she is double crossing on her bf...
Ama can't stand her drama and start to fire her in msn,
With some very rough word and they start fire-ing in msn...
For now they are not talking to each other....
I don't really want to put my hand in this matter cause is really none of my business...
But I still have to say doing this is really wrong and what come around goes around...
I hope she have a ready heart to take what happen next...
So is those guy is crazy about her...

********************** Movie ******************************

But this movie I just watch recently,and is very nice...
He is just not that into you..
It is a very nice movie...love but not all love,
Funny yet but true in a ways...
Girls go watch and you understand guys more...
And what they are thinking and how to be a real girl for once..
So go watch ya~ ^^

Good daddy we have~

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Just come back to Sri Rampai...
On the way here,something cross my mind...
My daddy and Xi Xi's daddy is very different,
but also very same in a way...
Got lost?? Don't understand what I said... ^^

Our daddy are willing to fetch us all the way to KL...
Even though only one person going down but,
almost the whole family will go down...
Daddy will have no saying in when I want to come down...
Anytime,anywhere,any place...
Once I call him,he will do what I want...

I am so thankful toward him...
Sending me up and down,any where I want to go...
You make me feel like a daddy little girl...
No I guess I am one d~

Even though sometime he get to my nerve with his attitude,
but I still love him and thankful~
You are the best daddy ever~

I Love You,Daddy~

Shopping~

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Yesterday went to Bukit Tinggi Jusco,
plan to go watch movie but the people there was crazy~

So we just walk around,have our lunch and walking around..

Lately I am very obsessive about bunny~

So during the shopping I have bought some crazy stuff~ ^^

The This I bought yesterday~ ^^

Handphone pouch~ ^^

Coin pouch~ ^^ Furry~ bery cute~

For my phone~ ^^

My phone theme~ Bunny~ ^^

My day at home~

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Today woke up kinda early...

Maybe normally also so early wake up ba...

Today morning went over to Vivian house to clean myself up..

Then came home have my brunch,then plan to study,
but plan was destoryed cause of the big black box in my house...

******************************During the addiction***********************

Studying infornt of the Big Black Box.... ^^

The foods that we eat during the drama is on~

We almost finish the pineapple biscuits,mum will be really mad~ ^^

My so call aunt, well is a long story,due to family and birth time...


Cousin sister Joanne,grandma nag cause she can't sit and watch


Cousin brother,Wei Kiat... Look at his eyes~ Scary~


It is a kinda boring saturday,don't really like saturday much...

Beside getting to come home to be with my family and relax~ ^^

*****************************Confession*********************************

Lately I am like a movie-holic...

Alot of moive I want to watch,but no one want to join me,

and don't have time....beside Xi Xi... ^^

Plan to go moive with her tomorow for confession of a shopaholic...

Hope is nice and worth watching~^^

Hot day~

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Today woke up kinda late...
Cause last night I stay up late...
Haha,well youngster now can do what beside msn alot...
Ya I stay up late cause was msn-ing till 2 am...

Lately I can write blog and online is cause of Xi Xi~
Hehe... Thank you o Xi Xi...
Cause using her laptop alot lately...^^
Today here (setapak) is very hot and the blinding sun is up in the sky...
Finished my class at 12pm,walk back home...
Eaten last night spaghetti that I cooked for Xi Xi
We did not really eat much,so today continue with it..

************************* Studies, Lucky, Happy******************************

Today got a good news,yesterday I was worry mad about my FF
Cause yesterday Pn.Maznah told me must lai for today...
Due to the make good test... OMG... Freaking out yesterday...
She told got 18 students out of 120 have to do the test...
I was think I will get it,the lucky thing is....
Haha,my whole class pass... ^^

But final coming soon,very soon...
William (my logistics lecturer) went to genting to relax,
cause he said better enjoy before the war...
how nice if can relax too,for now really don't have the mood to study...
Everyday planning go where play only...
Haix,but I really want to start to revision next week..

So most probably I will not online so some time...
Don't wish to repeat the whole year~
Really don't want to disappoint my parent and lecturer...
But some of my friends already don't plan to study anymore..
Play for the last sem..and all going back hometown..

I will miss you guys...
You are the best humans I met~
Nice meeting you all too...

********* Happy Couple, What I get to feel *********

Xi Xi and Hon Un couple-ing news have got out...

She does not really want to let people to know...

But cause Hon Un is not very happy about it,

so they acted normal but in a couple way... ^^

He is very sticky,she is ok with him...

He is very dirty in mind,she don't really like

He is very childish,she don't really care

He is very caring,she is too but in different way...

He is very sweet,she is touch

He is very in love with her,so is she...

Hope you two love bird happy lor~ ^^

This is what I feel and some is Xi Xi feeling...

Don't take it seriuos if is not true.. ^^

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The Ending ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Going home today,later after my revision class...
Xi Xi's bro is coming to pick us up~!!
I miss you,home~
Muaxxxxxx~~

Wah~ A very good morning~ ^^

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Woke up kinda early today...
Skiped FF class cause don't really feel like going...
The lecturer is very boring...
I know I should not do that,cause final is very near...
But I don't see the point to go,he just reading for the slides..
We are not really so dumb till can't read from it...
Anyway will going to ILO class,cause got revision..
William took alot of time to do the filtering for us,
so is better to go if not wasted all his effort...
Thank you o William~

Just now when and open the glass door fot the front gate...
Haha...Guess what I found...
A chicken... black in colour,kinda thin,but very graceful...
It does not make alot of noisy,it just walking round and round only...
Even though it graceful, like a saying goes, never jugde a book by its cover..
It did something bad,really bad...
It poop on the floor~ why must it poop at my house wor...
After pooping,it walk around again...
Then it walk over the fence and to the neighbour house...

I was think why don't go over only poop??
My house got better feel ar?
Neighbour house is more comforty and messy...
Haix anywhere,the chicken poop and have left the building..
Thank you~ thank you~

Now is time for me to left the building too~
Thank you~ thank you~
Bubye everyone~

Whole day out~

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Today we only have class till 9.30am,
due to the MQA visit so lecturer have to go eraly...
So we plan to go wet...
Haha... Went to Time Square for movie...
We reach round 11.45am then we went to GSC to get the tickets...
After our brunch at MCD... very cheap yet nice...
Lately I don't eat much,one day maybe only eat two meal...

Xi Xi got abit worry cause I don't eat much...
only eaten nuggets,fries and a small cup of coke...
Anyway,Kim,Ray,Hon Un,Xi Xi,Su Su and me went fot the movie
12 Round...
Well for guy that movie is nice,but for girls not that intersting lor...
But not bad at least got action even though got abit bored... I give about 6/10

The unlucky part...
Kimmy lost her phone at the cinema...
Really shit...we look for it but can't find it...
Thinking was maybe the fornt row malay took cause it must have fell down
I feel sorry to kimmy..cause her phone lost...
Kimmy sorry o~
Then we go Digi replace her SIM card...

Then we went to Gasonline,
have Hi-Tea... ^^ actually is cause that time it will be very jam...
I have ice cream...Yummy,me likey~
Got a bear for myself.. ^^
It can say is for comforting myself ba... ^^
Plan to name it as BB~ stand for Bao Bei & Bear Bear~



BB relaxing beside me now~ ^^ cutie~


We went to the video game area,I play slient hills...
Cool~ me likey...
Kim ,Hon Un and Ray play the boxing thingy...
Eh not bad lor,but I scare cause it like will hurt...^^
Then we went to MU to find Lian Lian to have dinner...
Well as I said I eating very little lately,
so have a cup of milo and few mouth of the rice and that is all...

****************************The Ending********************************

We all have a nice time beside all the unlucky thing happen...
So long I never go out with my buddies d...
I will love to have it again~ ^^

Ouch~!! Pain~ !!

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Well,it is very shameful but it is painful....
Just now was taking my bath,guess what?!?
I fell down,hit on my bouncy butt,hit my leg to the wall...
So big d still can fall down eh,so shameful ar...
But now ok d,not that painful d... ^^

********************* My Feeling **********************

I have be very moody for the last few post due to my love...
Today I can say I am doing better d...
There are something that suddenly make me think of you...
The college car ticket number that I promise to get for you...
I have forgetten it d,but one of my friend reminded me of it...
Now at the house planning to cook dinner,it make me think of you too....
Hanging the clothes also make me think of you...

As I said I was doing well before all this happen and remind me...

But I really enjoy today,I got through my OB test,

but for Xi Xi and Ling Ling like got abit problem...

Hopefully teacher help them lor...

My friends all so good,they were all around...never leave me alone at all

they also keep me very busy so I will not think of useless thing...

Every relationship have their own problem,

it is depends on will you give it other chance anot...

If you really think it can be mend why not try it,better than leaving it...

Just only feel one of my friend relationship not going very well..

They were colder than usual...and the way the guy look at the girl is like,

please can I have a second chance...

I asked both of them ,but I couldn't get anything from them...

All the guy say is you wait la,as time come you know...

One more new couple,still very new,fresh and shy...

The guy is very caring and the girl is very nice too...

But the guy is want to move on faster,but the girl want to take it slow...

So all I can say is try to sit and talk lor...

It is a relationship but is two people in it... Don't don't talk cause it will not help...

I learn from my past...

~~~~~~~~~~~~ In the End ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Overall, I'm very happy...

With what I have,who I got,Where I am...

Have one more new member who I want to thank you

William Tan~ ^^

Making me laugh alot lately...

Thank you,

for making me happy,and teaching me ILO ^^

Learning to let go....

So at last I have face the fear that I have be worrying about..
I guess that will be the end of our love,
even though,there is regrates,sadness,
and there are something that still missing....
We still letting it go...

After you leave yesterday I cry very badly..
I started to miss you,I started to think of you...
And I know I will never get to see you again...
I kept my promise,I did not cry during the talk...
I have a feeling you did not leave that fast,
you was near by,feeling the same thing that I feel....

When I was in my room,alot of thing hit me...
Where you used to sit,your smell,your face,your sweetness...
And always talking to me...
This house have alot of you... too many...
I looking at my phone whole day, hoping for you...

I know you will not be back for awhile...
Till I go find you...as I told you...
But it hurts,my heart hurts alot...

I was such a fool,during infornt of others all I can do is be happy,
like it does not matter at all...
But once I am alone,the thought of you fill my head..
I wanted to speed the healing process.... It do kill me~!

Listening to alots of song,those song we used to share or sing too,
I have deleted,and stop listening too,all they do is make me think of you...
I am hesitating did I done it right??

I miss you...
This will the last time I will be saying this to you...
Thank you... You were the best thing happen to me...
You have to be happy...

Grateful . Numb . Happy . Sad .

I very grateful,happy cause I found out,
I have alots of good friends that are supporting me...
Even though,I lose you but I gain something,
that is more than you,even is better than you...

My sisters,Nigel,Xi Xi,Ling Ling, Lian Lian...
Everyone of them tell me one thing,
and ask me to trust it...
But you are not the same you always try to ask me not to follow it...
But since so many people can ask me to follow it why should I still listen to you?
I should just listen to it,my own feeling..

For the pass few hours, I was suffering...
I wanted to cry,but I could not do it...
Everyone tell me to hold on,you are not worth it to cry for...
asking me to be strong,I did it...
I was happy,laughing like normal without you in my life...

But suddenly when I was watch the drama that you used to enjoy,
one of the actress said something you told me before...
and eve hug me and I broke down...
Then only I know I was holding in very long...
I have to do this.... All my sisters do is hug me and stay quiet,
till I start talking...

There is pain,sadness...
But I have make up my mind...
My feeling telling me is time to let go...
Losing you is painful, but I know I will and can get over it...
Cause I have my family and friends with me...
I be stronger than last time..

Grateful cause I meet a bunch of good friends,
that I never have...
I felt lucky cause last time not one friends of my will find me,
if they know I have problem...
But for you all the once you read my blog,you all come to me...
I am very thankful toward you all...
You all the best thing/human I ever have~

Thank you to my sisters,Nigel,Xi Xi, Ling Ling, Lian Lian~
All I can say is this... Thank you~

It's over I guess...

I am very near to the end now...
My love is leaving soon...
It just the time...

Even though it is short but,
I was happy,I learn I grow,I cry,I understand,I was stronger...
I know it will hurt,but there is no other choices...
It's mine will be mine,it's not mine will not be mine...

I will put in all my best to go save,
but if cant be save,I will try not drop a tears...
Cause you have given me the best thing I have ever ask for...
It will be pain,but like you always tell me I have to be stonger..

You have colour a part of my life...
You was a part of my life...
Thank you for staying,even is only awhile..
At least you make my life better...

It better to pain for a short time,
rather then paining for the long time...

Thank you for everything,
& good bye for now...

I hope my friends can be with me,
and help me to get over it...
Especially Lian Lian,Xi Xi and Ling Ling..
I need you all~!! Save me~ok??

Facing problem.. Need a solution~

Why is it so hard for me to trust him??
Why I can trust others but not him??
Why I am always thinking what is he doing??
Why I am like so lost without him??
Is he the one?
Is he that important?

I always do try to trust him,
everytime I convict myself to trust him,
in the end I will end up with where I started...

Maybe is cause we are still new??
I don't really know what to do...
I am new too... It is hard for me...
I wish I can trust him with all my heart...
I always try to be stronger and independent,
but after meeting him I become so weak..

Why am I always the one who dissappoint poeple who love me?
Why can't I do better?
Why is it so hard to study?

Having a very very short sem...
Lots of test,mid-term,courseworks...
Lots to study,remember and eat in...
I really can't stand see the love one of my get hurt by me..
I feel really bad...
Sometime I just hate myself so much~

Why am I like this??